lerawa dast pe akam sarata amawe yadgaryakani yakam saty nasynw pekawa bunman bas bkam, ay la aw rozhay bo yakam jar gwe bisty dangt bum, har chand la naw azarakek da jastam la xach dra bu aw danga pakw pr la sozat rey terwanyny bo zhyan goram, mn wam azany chytr twany zhyanm nya ballam qadar toy ba nasan toy krd ba hawrem la yak chrka saty hawreyati hastm akrd zor azizy la lam nak bo away purzamy chunka mn 19 saly tamanm babe nasny tow binyny ba re krd bu.
hastm akrd jyawazy la kasanytr mroveky ta bley ba rawshty la hamuy grngtr rastgoy. pash mawayak ( wak alen hawreyati para bsenet abet ba xoshawisty ). Hawreyatiman bu ba xunchay ashqeky nakrawa, zor atrsam hastakanm la chand dereky be gyanda ya ba blem la chand wshayaky wshk w pe gyanda qalb rez bkam, balam har chone bu siqam pe krdyw payamani ashqm lagalt da ba ballay snaw barekda halwasy la barwary 18.7.2010 katzhmer 17.32 xulak.
Yakam marjy ashqanam rastgoy bu chunka zor ba dro azar dra bum, la aw satawa buy ba padshay hamu xawnakanm buy ba haweny gsht nusynakanm chytr nam atwany be to bm rozhe, la regay am ashqa pakawa zor astangy la regaman da bu hande jar la hangawakanm sar smm aya, balam ba hoy towa xomm agrtawaw jarekytr hangawm baraw peshawa ana.
Dway 3 salw 6 mang xoshawisty regayakytrman grta bar ka xot azany chand ba azar bu, la pash hamu amana ba yak gashtyn 18.3.2014 dast peky pekawa zhyanmana bargaw kolm pechayawa w dway hastakanmw hastakant kawtm balenm wa bu itr ta abad bo to bzhym tosh ba haman shewa,
18.7.2014 .. 4 sal pekawa bun lagal azarakan 4 mang pekawa zhyanw hawsargry, leraya amawe blem amada bum ta am satash gyanmt pe bbaxshm agar pewistt bu dway to xulakek nazhym, ba hamu hezmawa ba hamu twanakanmawa ba hamu bunmawa brway tawawm pet habu qat rozhe brwam nabu, payman bshkeny, azarm bay, dlm lat lat bkay, ninokakant bchaqenyta sar dlmw, pestm hal bdry ,shaw nxuny bkeshm ta bayani, siqa la dast bam, bem leraya ta atwanm hawar bkamw bot bnusm ayy chand azart pe gayandm.
Hiwam bu, ka laparakany aw rabrdua bezar karam bpechmawaw la gal toda dast pe bkam zhyanek pekawa bneyn ka hich mrovek ba xawnysh nay biny bet, chunka xoshawistyw ashqy pakm away le krd bum xawn ba hamu shta afswnawayakanawa bbinm ka esta la waqi3 da abinm wanya. Zhyanek ka saratayaky puxtw be xawsh la sar labarakany rozhgar tomar bkayn bas maxabn awa xamekytryshm hata sar rega.
Esta sart sur amene wa azany hichek nyaw be agam la dunya balam tanha satek bba xwenary aw hastay mn, ja prsyar bka wizhdan chya???
Ba shiriny qsakant, ba birw bo chuna aqlakant, bum ba haw damy ashqw frywm xward balent yame ka hamu dunyam bit, hich shtekm le nasharytawa, azarm nayay, dlm nashkeny, ashqman naxayta zher pekant, xam xorm bit, dast sry frmeskakanm bit, baxtawarym bit, hamu jastat ra bxay bom bo tawe 7asanawa, agrdanek bit bo sutany xamakanm,. Esta gayshtuma lutkay paiwandy sozdary lagalt esta mn hawsartm mn xam xortm, mn saryntm mn pexafm bot, mn halgry azarakantm, mn henda xoshm awey ba chrkayak dur bun let hast ba azar akam. ay to chy??? kwa aw ba je henany paymanakat kwa aw satanay pet awtm xyanat krdaway na mrovayatia, awanay xyanat akan kasaneky nafamn halwestyan nya, qat mn ama ba to nakam chunka krdwayaki narawaya, magar to nabuy awat ba mn awt????
Jwantryn chrka satakany tamanm lagal to da ba sar abrd, shilay ashqw dldarym anoshy, away chand du rozha aybinm tawaw dli shkanm zhyanmy halgaranawa, awa la ba towa binym hamu jastay hazhndw zawy la zher pekanmda alarzy..
Bo bas pem ble?? La rasty da esta azanm aw bargy pakyzaya ka to poshy but way la mn krd la stt da wshkanm sharmzar bkam chawakanm bnuqenm, ta shtekytr la aw kawla zytr nabinm. Gwem la hamu aw shtana axny bu ka ayanwt, tanha bo away jga la dangy tow brwa krdnm ba to shtekytr w dangekytr nabistm, aw damamaka saxtaya chya bo awa poshywta?? la chyt kama ka awa bkay ka krduta. Dlm xweny le atke chawakanm sur halgarawn, azarakan jastamyan hazhandua. Szay am ro7a halwarywam ayam. ko kraway xomm tafrw tuna krdua, chytr hich nama ba toy bbaxshm boya bryarm yawa zhyanm kotay pe benm chunka hich azarek ba qad ama azary nayawm. Ba tamanm chawarwany amam le na akrdy, Ay xwaya esta chand dl ba azarm.
Am shaw ba chawy frmesk w garuy pr 7asratawa, nawawzy xaw brdmyawa la srawteky sairy pr la gryanw hansk da sarm naya sar saryn, bony xyanatm akrd, agar xyanaty tofanakan nabwaya, na dakra ema ba yak bgaynw mn awa aludat bm, /Am shaw dlopkan wak hazar tnok la zery twawa, la sar ruxsarm adrawshayawa.
Am bayanya pesh hastant hastek ray chlkandm sairy chawakantm krd shtekm tya badi akrd zor xambar bum, ka hastay la naw jega wak hamu bayniakanytr rut la pc ekat krdu la pesha ba agayw la sar xo babatakant hal abzhard xo mnish amzany ba chyawa xariky bas aqlm twanay qabul krdny nabu away to peway xarik buy mn hamuym abiny boya sat dway sat dlm ptr ashka, dway xwendaway shtakanw binynyan wsha ba dway wsha drzakany dlm gawratr abun der dway der dlm abua mshte xola mesh, gar to la qulay dltawa dway maly am ashqa nakawy sudy nya, pem waya to ba shteky asaiy azany ballam shardnaway shtakanysh bo mn xyanateky gawraya ta agata hande shtytr, drokanysh xyanatn, xyanat bo mn har awa nya lagal mrovek da bxawyw paiwandyt lagala habet bo mn hamu awanan ka ailem.. DRo, Shardnway sht, BA agaw la sar xo w ba tanha sairy sht krdn htd..
Aw balenay la yakm saty pekawa bun ba mnt ya amro tekt shkand, amro mnt tek shkand, fert krdm bzhym wak koilay hastm. Qat natburm. Dlm chytr ba ashqawa naxlafenm hawly awa ayam am haftaya zhyan bo hata haty ba je bhelm. pirozt be away krdty ka bua hoy ruxany mnw siqam,. Dast xosh.
hastm akrd jyawazy la kasanytr mroveky ta bley ba rawshty la hamuy grngtr rastgoy. pash mawayak ( wak alen hawreyati para bsenet abet ba xoshawisty ). Hawreyatiman bu ba xunchay ashqeky nakrawa, zor atrsam hastakanm la chand dereky be gyanda ya ba blem la chand wshayaky wshk w pe gyanda qalb rez bkam, balam har chone bu siqam pe krdyw payamani ashqm lagalt da ba ballay snaw barekda halwasy la barwary 18.7.2010 katzhmer 17.32 xulak.
Yakam marjy ashqanam rastgoy bu chunka zor ba dro azar dra bum, la aw satawa buy ba padshay hamu xawnakanm buy ba haweny gsht nusynakanm chytr nam atwany be to bm rozhe, la regay am ashqa pakawa zor astangy la regaman da bu hande jar la hangawakanm sar smm aya, balam ba hoy towa xomm agrtawaw jarekytr hangawm baraw peshawa ana.
Dway 3 salw 6 mang xoshawisty regayakytrman grta bar ka xot azany chand ba azar bu, la pash hamu amana ba yak gashtyn 18.3.2014 dast peky pekawa zhyanmana bargaw kolm pechayawa w dway hastakanmw hastakant kawtm balenm wa bu itr ta abad bo to bzhym tosh ba haman shewa,
18.7.2014 .. 4 sal pekawa bun lagal azarakan 4 mang pekawa zhyanw hawsargry, leraya amawe blem amada bum ta am satash gyanmt pe bbaxshm agar pewistt bu dway to xulakek nazhym, ba hamu hezmawa ba hamu twanakanmawa ba hamu bunmawa brway tawawm pet habu qat rozhe brwam nabu, payman bshkeny, azarm bay, dlm lat lat bkay, ninokakant bchaqenyta sar dlmw, pestm hal bdry ,shaw nxuny bkeshm ta bayani, siqa la dast bam, bem leraya ta atwanm hawar bkamw bot bnusm ayy chand azart pe gayandm.
Hiwam bu, ka laparakany aw rabrdua bezar karam bpechmawaw la gal toda dast pe bkam zhyanek pekawa bneyn ka hich mrovek ba xawnysh nay biny bet, chunka xoshawistyw ashqy pakm away le krd bum xawn ba hamu shta afswnawayakanawa bbinm ka esta la waqi3 da abinm wanya. Zhyanek ka saratayaky puxtw be xawsh la sar labarakany rozhgar tomar bkayn bas maxabn awa xamekytryshm hata sar rega.
Esta sart sur amene wa azany hichek nyaw be agam la dunya balam tanha satek bba xwenary aw hastay mn, ja prsyar bka wizhdan chya???
Ba shiriny qsakant, ba birw bo chuna aqlakant, bum ba haw damy ashqw frywm xward balent yame ka hamu dunyam bit, hich shtekm le nasharytawa, azarm nayay, dlm nashkeny, ashqman naxayta zher pekant, xam xorm bit, dast sry frmeskakanm bit, baxtawarym bit, hamu jastat ra bxay bom bo tawe 7asanawa, agrdanek bit bo sutany xamakanm,. Esta gayshtuma lutkay paiwandy sozdary lagalt esta mn hawsartm mn xam xortm, mn saryntm mn pexafm bot, mn halgry azarakantm, mn henda xoshm awey ba chrkayak dur bun let hast ba azar akam. ay to chy??? kwa aw ba je henany paymanakat kwa aw satanay pet awtm xyanat krdaway na mrovayatia, awanay xyanat akan kasaneky nafamn halwestyan nya, qat mn ama ba to nakam chunka krdwayaki narawaya, magar to nabuy awat ba mn awt????
Jwantryn chrka satakany tamanm lagal to da ba sar abrd, shilay ashqw dldarym anoshy, away chand du rozha aybinm tawaw dli shkanm zhyanmy halgaranawa, awa la ba towa binym hamu jastay hazhndw zawy la zher pekanmda alarzy..
Bo bas pem ble?? La rasty da esta azanm aw bargy pakyzaya ka to poshy but way la mn krd la stt da wshkanm sharmzar bkam chawakanm bnuqenm, ta shtekytr la aw kawla zytr nabinm. Gwem la hamu aw shtana axny bu ka ayanwt, tanha bo away jga la dangy tow brwa krdnm ba to shtekytr w dangekytr nabistm, aw damamaka saxtaya chya bo awa poshywta?? la chyt kama ka awa bkay ka krduta. Dlm xweny le atke chawakanm sur halgarawn, azarakan jastamyan hazhandua. Szay am ro7a halwarywam ayam. ko kraway xomm tafrw tuna krdua, chytr hich nama ba toy bbaxshm boya bryarm yawa zhyanm kotay pe benm chunka hich azarek ba qad ama azary nayawm. Ba tamanm chawarwany amam le na akrdy, Ay xwaya esta chand dl ba azarm.
Am shaw ba chawy frmesk w garuy pr 7asratawa, nawawzy xaw brdmyawa la srawteky sairy pr la gryanw hansk da sarm naya sar saryn, bony xyanatm akrd, agar xyanaty tofanakan nabwaya, na dakra ema ba yak bgaynw mn awa aludat bm, /Am shaw dlopkan wak hazar tnok la zery twawa, la sar ruxsarm adrawshayawa.
Am bayanya pesh hastant hastek ray chlkandm sairy chawakantm krd shtekm tya badi akrd zor xambar bum, ka hastay la naw jega wak hamu bayniakanytr rut la pc ekat krdu la pesha ba agayw la sar xo babatakant hal abzhard xo mnish amzany ba chyawa xariky bas aqlm twanay qabul krdny nabu away to peway xarik buy mn hamuym abiny boya sat dway sat dlm ptr ashka, dway xwendaway shtakanw binynyan wsha ba dway wsha drzakany dlm gawratr abun der dway der dlm abua mshte xola mesh, gar to la qulay dltawa dway maly am ashqa nakawy sudy nya, pem waya to ba shteky asaiy azany ballam shardnaway shtakanysh bo mn xyanateky gawraya ta agata hande shtytr, drokanysh xyanatn, xyanat bo mn har awa nya lagal mrovek da bxawyw paiwandyt lagala habet bo mn hamu awanan ka ailem.. DRo, Shardnway sht, BA agaw la sar xo w ba tanha sairy sht krdn htd..
Aw balenay la yakm saty pekawa bun ba mnt ya amro tekt shkand, amro mnt tek shkand, fert krdm bzhym wak koilay hastm. Qat natburm. Dlm chytr ba ashqawa naxlafenm hawly awa ayam am haftaya zhyan bo hata haty ba je bhelm. pirozt be away krdty ka bua hoy ruxany mnw siqam,. Dast xosh.
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